crappy
SNICKAAHHHHHHH!!!! XD LULZZ...
...now I want one >_<'...
- Location:in your pants!
- Mood:
amused - Music:Discovery Channel yo
Since I'm never really very good at doing something completely on whim I decided that I'd plan out what I'd get done tomorrow. So here's the plan...
6:40 AM - Wake up and get dressed
7:00 AM - Go for a walk
7:30 or 8:00 AM - Eat breakfast then shower afterwards
9:00 AM - Get dressed and start a load of laundry
~Other things I need to do would be (doesn't all have to be done tomorrow/today):
- Make a list of clothes to buy
- Review Japanese
- See if headset still works for Rosetta Stone (somehow I broke it >.<)
- Fold Kimono and find a safe spot to put it
- Make dentist appointment
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- Color Isis
- Finish my writing piece for
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ladyyeinkhan (shh...it's a surprise!)- Work on some art for Joy
- Make Christina's birthday (belated) present
- Make a doctor's appointment (switching BC perhaps...if TriCare covers it...)
I think that's all.... but I can't remember because I'm getting tired ^^;
For right now, that's the plan...
- Location:in your closet
- Mood:
sleepy - Music:Go-Getter-Greg by Ludo
HUZZAH!!!
I have posted my review of the manga X-Kai Vol. 1!! Oh yeah! After a year of hiatus from reviewing I've posted something!!
go here: usagireviews.blogspot.com/
That's where you'll be able to read my reviews as I post them (^o^)
It's been a while since I wrote a review so don't bag on me if the writing sucks LOL XD cuz I know it does XP
Anyways, I did find out that Asami Tohjoh, one of my most favorite Manga-ka, has passed away almost 2 years ago! I'm heartbroken for her family and because I'll never know how everything plays out in X-Kai as Vol 2 is the last volume.
I pray, however, that Tohjoh-san is resting in peace <3
~ Subaru ~
I have posted my review of the manga X-Kai Vol. 1!! Oh yeah! After a year of hiatus from reviewing I've posted something!!
go here: usagireviews.blogspot.com/
That's where you'll be able to read my reviews as I post them (^o^)
It's been a while since I wrote a review so don't bag on me if the writing sucks LOL XD cuz I know it does XP
Anyways, I did find out that Asami Tohjoh, one of my most favorite Manga-ka, has passed away almost 2 years ago! I'm heartbroken for her family and because I'll never know how everything plays out in X-Kai as Vol 2 is the last volume.
I pray, however, that Tohjoh-san is resting in peace <3
~ Subaru ~
- Location:Home yo
- Mood:
sympathetic - Music:Fox News Channel... lol
Today started off not so great. I woke up late (around 10am) and when I came downstairs my mom asked me about what time my appointment was and when I looked at my calandar it said 10:30am. Oh shit. So, without getting a chance to shower, I rushed upstairs and grabbed on some clothes then left. All that was going through my head was Dr. Conner better not drop me today or I will be very angry. I called and left a message.
Then, I called again and finally got a person to talk to. She said, "Oh, don't worry, Dr. Conner is running late anyways." which is something that I should have known from the start. He always runs late. When I got there it was a little after 10:30am. Of course, like always, it took forever and a day to get in there so I was happy that I had my sketch book and pencils in my bag to give me something to do. It's so annoyingly boring in that office!
After the appointment it was about 11:30am so I called mom and asked what we were going to do for lunch. The kids were getting some BK and I had been craving Taco Bell for a while (I'm always craving TB though lol) so I told her that if she wanted something from there then I'd buy. I brought home food for me and my parents.
Even though I was uber hungry I was thinking about portions and that I don't really need to eat a whole lot. I got a grilled chicken quesadilla knowing that I had some fruit at home that I could eat with it and I have something to drink at home like water or milk. Doing this was a step towards figuring out what I can do to start eating better. Portions have always been a major thing for me always getting too much when I don't need to eat a lot. After eating I felt full, not so full I could throw up, but full enough that I knew that I didn't need to eat any more. It was nice having that feeling.
Later on, Josh came home and asked mom to take him to the pool since his friends would be there. Mom, who usually doesn't like going to the pool, said she'd take him as well as Jess. Mom asked if I wanted to go so I was debating between staying home and having quiet time or going to the pool and swimming around. In the end I decided that perhaps it'd be good if I got out and had a swim. Therefore, I went.
I was having a good time relaxing in the cool water, but every time Jessie looked at me she had this depressed look on her face. While I really didn't want to mess with her I thought that since she "didn't have anyone to play with" as she said that I'd try and teach her how to flip in the water. Each time she didn't get it she almost started crying. I kept telling her that she just had to keep practicing. There was nothing else I could tell her. It'd been really cool if I had one of those underwater camera things and we could take pictures and mess around.
Maybe next time.
After dinner I pretty much just relaxed on the couch with my computer. I was waiting for my friend but she didn't show up online. She said she was with family so while I was upset and really wanted to just go off on her about her not telling me anything I didn't. I knew that'd only push her away and make her feel bad as well as make me feel bad. Doing that wouldn't help us or get us anywhere so after taking some breathes I simply sent her a good night and left it at that. No need to fight, I don't want to fight. I'm finding that fighting takes way too much energy out of me when I could be using that energy for something else. What that something else is I dunno, maybe reading or talking to another friend.
On a side note... I am SO TIRED of hearing about Michael Jackson! Seriously, enough already. His passing was sad and we mourn the loss of the King of Pop, but enough is enough. There wasn't this much publicity for Farrah Fawcett when she died...come on...
Anyways, I suppose that's all. I'm trying to decide how I want to go about my day tomorrow. Definitely need to wake up earlier so I can take a walk while it is cool outside and not blisteringly hot. I'm planning to work on some sort of schedule for myself at least with exercise.
Gotta get healthier!
- Location:home
- Mood:
thoughtful - Music:my mom talking & the TV
HAPPY FOURTH OF JULY!!!
Hope everyone had a wonderful holiday!!
- Location:SAFB
- Mood:
okay - Music:Jumanji!!
ecstaticI cannot believe this! Farrah Fawcett AND Michael Jackson are dead?! I did NOT see that coming at all...I knew that Farrah had been battling cancer but Michael...what the hell happened there?!! jeez...
I found the articles on Foxnews.com
Farrah Fawcett :: www.foxnews.com/story/0,2933,529080,00.h
Michael Jackson :: www.foxnews.com/story/0,2933,529103,00.h
some sad stuff... TT-TT
- Location:home
- Mood:
shocked - Music:none
Happy Daddy's Day to my weirdo daddy XD
Love you loads <3
- Location:home
- Mood:
bouncy - Music:Ninja Warrior!
I have decided what I am going to do for university, I think, haha. It's been a hard decision... However, I think that it is what I really want. So, in the end, I have decided that I will stay here in the midwest for university. Mom told me to narrow it down to the schools that have exactly what I want, of course I had to figure out what I wanted in the first place. My main problem was deciding between dancing and going back to NC or another state such as Ohio. In the end, I think that deciding to dance more would be a good thing. I want to keep dancing. Now, my only thing is to decide which school to go to. Right now it is between Washington University at St. Louis (www.wustl.edu) and University of Missouri at St. Louis - UMSL (www.umsl.edu). I think my counselor will be happier now that she won't have to keep chasing around Duke University to figure out what we need to do. When dad comes home I will have to see if my mom will take me to the campuses so we can have a tour of them. I do want to get a feel for the campus before deciding for sure. I know that Nikii is wanting to go to WashU so perhaps we can room together! That'd be fun, ne? ^o^
~ Kurichan
- Location:On the sofa
- Mood:
contemplative - Music:Sci Fi channel
God damn it is so flippin' hot!! I really hate the heat -.-' it was 95 degrees today which is so disgusting...ugh... normally I wouldn't have gone outside or out in general, but my mom had a meeting in St. Louis so I opted to go with her. The meeting was at the Missouri History Museum and she thought that it would be fun for me to take the kids and hang out there while she had her meeting there. It was a fun time...I will have to post pictures on flickr. I think that is the first time I really went out and stayed out since Bon Odori practice about two weeks ago. I know, it's sad. Oh well.
I think that last time I actually talked I was saying something about an appointment with a therapist ne? Well, I saw her and I have to say that I like her a lot. She's got a neat approach on things and wants to make sure that she teaches me skills that I need in dealing with people (family/friends mostly) as well as regulating my emotions. At my last appointment I ended up crying. I was talking about how much I can't stand my sister (which hurts because she's only 10...) and how she frustrates me so much. My therapist, Dr. Sierra, noted that I tend to take things personally which is a definite truth and told me that she would help me learn how to let it go. She gave me some "homework" to look over so we could talk about it at the next appointment next week. I am pretty optomistic about therapy. I really do want to change.
On another note...I still have not gotten a job and I start school in about two months. It pisses me off. I really wanted a job. I think that next year I will apply for work at the Botanical Gardens which is a temporary position anyways. I will make it a point to apply much earlier this time. I kinda wished I'd have money for the Japanese Festival this year though... next year I guess.
I really though that I might have more to say but at this point I am kinda drawing a blank... perhaps I will write more tomorrow. **shrugs** we'll have to see.
Jyaa
- Location:sitting on me bed
- Mood:
tired - Music:Fallen - Sarah McLachlan
I almost died laughing --
- Location:my bedroom
- Mood:
weird - Music:YouTube <3
I talked to her for a while earlier this evening and she told me what she does. I really felt like I was going to get some help with her. I want to set goals and figure out what I need to do so I can be back to my normal self. I feel like she could really help me. Bon Odori is on Monday too, and I have Japanese lesson tomorrow. I need to go over my work.
I haven't been eating...but I just haven't been feeling well. I dunno... I still need a job, but don't think I'll get one which pisses me off. I really need one. Oh well.. I'll figure something out...perhaps I should have taken that babysitting job. And my sister is getting on my last nerve with eating with her fucking mouth wide open! God that's disgusting!...
Well...that's all for now, I should go find something to eat.
Jyaa
- Location:Home
- Mood:
cranky - Music:Disney Channel...god...
Yesterday, I went to the community center in our neighborhood here on the base and went swimming. I met up with Amanda and her boyfriend Bradley who is here from Arizona visiting Amanda. We had a pretty good time swimming...although I felt really...self-conscious because of my weight. I look horrible in a swimsuit. Other than that, it was fun, hes a nice guy and I'm very happy for Amanda that she has such a nice guy. He's half Japanese too...but he likes natto >.< ew...
There are some other things that are going on... I wrote Yein about all the rapes and stuff that I've had happen, went through, feel...that kind of stuff. I don't know if she's read it and I don't know if she will ever respond to it. I emailed Julian, but I do not think that he wants to talk to me anymore. I know I messed up a lot I wish he'd give me a second chance though. Maybe I sent it to the wrong email...I don't think I did though. Oh well, I know that he, like Yein, is very busy and doesn't have as much time. I guess that I've lost a friend because of all of this. I only have myself to blame though.
Jyaa...
- Location:living room
- Mood: okay
- Music:the television
I just returned home from seeing Drag Me To Hell with my friends and oh my fucking god did it freak the HELL out of me!! Scared me shitless man... Of course, I am easily scared and tend to get off on being scared but damn.... I think I covered my eyes through most of the movie it freaked me out so much! >.< .... and now I'm sitting alon in the living room debating on whether or not to go upstairs to bed or just sleep here on the sofa...I think I might sleep on the sofa tonight T-T **hides under blanket**
So if you think you might want to go see it... It wasn't bad, I think that they could have picked a better actress to play the main character and a different guy to play her boyfriend...but other than that it was pretty good gruesome stuff. If that is not what you are in to...then don't go see it; it gets pretty gross.
Go find the trailer on YouTube or something because I don't feel like putting it up here so nyaa~
Oyasuminasai
- Location:under a blanket
- Mood: tired
- Music:silence, sweet silence
My Japanese lessons are going fairly well...I know I need to apply myself better to it all. I told mom that I've been feeling really lazy and she replied by saying I deserve to rest for a while after the semester, but I don't feel relaxed, just lazy. I know that once I get a job (if I get a job) I will have to be doing more and trying to work harder at getting on a schedule.
As far as how the summer will play out... I don't know. I am hoping to work, but who knows, I have bon odori which won't take up too much time, and Yein isn't coming out this summer which I don't really want to vent about, but somehow I knew it wouldn't work out. Might not ever work out...although I shouldn't say that. It upsets me to dwell on it so I won't mess with it anymore.
I have planned to start seeing a therapist again one my psychiatrist recommended to me. I really need a professional to help me figure out things and deal with stuff. I need someone who can give me resources and who can give me homework. I am so , so fucking tired of being treated like a mental disorder(s). The disorder isn't who I am it is just a part of me that I am dealing with and that I am getting treatment for. I hate that people do that to me. I hate that my friends do that to me. I am tired of being lied to and I am tired of being kept out of everything.
So I am going to call this therapist on Monday and make an appointment--if she is available.
On the upside...I bought myself a book to read, to keep my mind occupied. So far it is pretty good but I am only about to start the third chapter. As of right now, the gods have been cast out of heaven and are beginning to take avatars. So I will probably start reading the third chapter here in a little bit. I've actually been going out some... I went to the St. Louis Art Museum the other week with Amanda and another friend so that was nice. I enjoyed it a lot..except the ride there...the metro made me sick, but I think that it was because we were facing backwards instead of forwards. I will put up some pictures.
( Art Museum Photos )
I am going with Amanda and some friends tonight to see Drag Me To Hell ... it really looked like a good movie so we're seeing it at 10:20pm. I like going late at night so that I can still RP with Yein.
I suppose that is all that is going on at the moment. I know I have such a fabulous life ^^'....
~ Mata ne
- Location:SAFB
- Mood:
blah - Music:No music for me
No one is dead until they are forgotten...
For all those who have fought and protect our freedom...remember the fallen and never forget the living.
My mom, who was in the USAF (United States Air Force) for twelve years sent me this tribute to the soliders by a 12 year old girl. It is so beautiful.
For all those who have fought and protect our freedom...remember the fallen and never forget the living.
My mom, who was in the USAF (United States Air Force) for twelve years sent me this tribute to the soliders by a 12 year old girl. It is so beautiful.
americanveteranscenter.wordpress.com/200
Happy Memorial Day Everyone
Subaru-chan
- Location:SAFB
- Mood: okay
- Music:Japanese koto playing
I was roaming the ever entertaining youtube for something to watch/listen to and came upon the Roving Ronin Report of a Japanese Biwa Player. I found it to be rather interesting and beautiful ^^
Jyaa~
- Location:SAFB
- Mood: okay
- Music:something random on youtube
I WANT TO GO BACK TO SLEEP!!!! UUUGGHHH!
**dies**
x . x''
- Location:SAFB
- Mood:
exhausted - Music:traffic...literally
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